Day 3

Day 3

This post was supposed to happen a couple of hours ago at least… I’ll explain in a moment.

Today was the last day of my holiday. I knew I needed to get a couple of bits and pieces from the supermarket and then the rest of the day would probably be my own. I was good when I got up, I dry body brushed before getting clean and moisturising (moisturising is also happening before bed). I used my face scrub and facial moisturiser too. I remembered my vitamins. I am still eating poorly but part of that is getting the rubbish food out of the house. I can’t afford to just bin it.

I haven’t done much in the way of housework, organising or anything really productive. It was the last day of my holiday, why would I?

I knew I wanted to knit my socks or read, just relax basically.

I was knitting away from a rather poorly wound centre-pull ball and then the yarn barf happened. For those of you who do not take part in yarny pursuits you will not understand how heartbreaking this can be. I was brought to a standstill. My only option seemed to be rewinding the ball from the outside and continuing with a normal ball (no convenient centre-pull.). I started winding… and winding… and then I hit the tangle. I have been rewinding and untangling for over two hours and I still haven’t sorted it out. I couldn’t put it down. I’m a little disappointed in myself that there are no photos of it at it’s worst. I can only apologise.

Tomorrow I am back to work. I am going to try a new routine, and it is going to be tough because I’ve not gone for an early night. I am going to try and wake at half 6, leaving the house at 7 to go to the gym, making either the 8.17 or 8.30 train to work… On my way to bed I am going to look out both my work clothes and my gym clothes and locate breakfast and lunch. (I am also aware that I might not even be able to work out because they have refit my gym in December and I haven’t been back since then, they might want me to do a mini-induction… I hope not)

I don’t want to do it. I really don’t. I’m not sure what part I am dreading more, being back at work, or being back in a gym. Unfortunately neither is really optional I don’t think.

Ok, perspective a second, big picture – This job is temporary (aren’t they all these days?) try to enjoy it. The gym has been fun at times in the past, you like how you look when you’ve been going, you sleep better and feel healthier, it IS worth it!

I really hope I don’t come back here tomorrow and have to tell you all I’ve let myself down.

KT :-)

Day 2

Day 2

Today was not like yesterday. That seems like a kinda stupid thing to say, what two days are ever truly the same (insert Nine Inch Nails – Everyday is Exactly the Same here…) but bear with me a moment. I have been all motivated and stuff, I know that today I wanted to do a bit more work to this little piece of the interwebs, I wanted to finish the book I was reading: which is the one to the left for anyone interested. (the 4th in the Sookie Stackhouse series, aka the True Blood books) Oh yeah, vampire themed books will hopefully become a recurring character in this blog. They are one of my guilty pleasures. Where was I? Oh yeah, and I wanted to watch some tv while knitting the socks I cast on yesterday. If I got to spend time with the man-shape in amongst all that, great, otherwise, no biggie.

One stupid misunderstanding and I end up being a Class A grump on a major strop mission. I can strop with the best of them, I don’t even need an audience, I can strop really well all by myself. It has been referred to as princess mode, I fold my arms and stamp my foot and it is altogether unattractive for a fully grown (allegedly) woman. But when I get in a huff, the only person I harm is me. I get myself stuck in a brain-loop and nothing gets done all day. I couldn’t concentrate on my book so I put it down at the end of the chapter (~60 pages from the end). Decided to go for a walk to re-set myself. It was pouring down rain so change of plan, I went for a drive. Nearly 100 miles to get back to the start and realise I did it wrong… I did it in silence. Eejit!  That meant I had gotten back to the start and instead of clearing my head, it had stewed itself, adding many other stupid, depressing, or otherwise unhelpful thoughts to the one teeny tiny one that started it all. On this realisation I decided enough was enough. Shortly after that, the misunderstanding was all but resolved and I’ve accomplished exactly nothing all day long. (Except a 100 mile round trip to nowhere in particular – oh, and I did fill up the car at a Tesco filling station so I could get the clubcard reward points because “every little helps?” – that joke will bomb outside the UK…)

To try and make up for the lack of activity I have cleaned the kitchen and put in a load of laundry in the washing machine while dinner was cooking. I have put away the clean laundry that has been sitting out for two days. I have written this blog post and I am now about to settle down to watch last nights Sherlock while knitting a few more rows of my socks. Perhaps I’ll take the book to bed.

One other last thing. Being Monday of week 1, I weighed myself this morning. 141pounds (or ~64kgs if you prefer). I’m not impressed. While I had the cold for 2 weeks leading up to Christmas I had lost a few pounds due to lack of appetite. I have found them all and one to spare in a week, how is that even possible?? Don’t get me wrong, I don’t want to be skinny, just not flabby, I’m aiming for fit and tight. Wednesday, the holiday is over, the gym is open again and I’m back to work (in all senses of the word). It’s time to get fit!

Make that two last things – day two is not nearly as neat as day one so far is it? – In the effort of looking after myself a bit better today I remembered to use my facial scrub followed by moisturiser because my skin has been horrendous of late, and as someone who has never had this problem before, I don’t like it. I also remembered to take my vitamins. I set an alarm on my phone for this and although it is irritating, it’s getting the job done.

Right. I need to semi-eject my brain (a full eject will lead to me needing Sherlock explained and wonky knitting). Please keep your fingers crossed that I have a more productive day tomorrow.

KT :-)

 

Day 1

Happy New Year everyone!

Day 1

Remember yesterday I said that I wouldn’t be starting everything on day 1? Well, that is because I started a little bit early. I have been prepping this space for a few weeks ready to get started but only a few days ago did I really get mad and well… feel it. KT got angry… I deserve to be happier than I am so why am I not damn it? (There was a lot more bad language but lets leave that in the past where it belongs. That was Christmas night. The picture you can see above was taken on boxing day. I woke up feeling like I knew where to start so I ran with it. What you can see in that picture is what happens when someone decides to separate all their paperwork out by type and then go through it allAfter, shredding what is no longer needed. I was shredding bank statements from 1994… (I was 11 years old in 1994) I haven’t even used that account since June 2005… I learned something else though, I haven’t used that account in years, but I’ve never closed it. That is now on an ever growing list of things to do that will simplify things. I can say for sure that there will be more about that kind of thing because is that not what this blog is about at its essence??

So, what did I achieve? Well, I started with two box files (one for ‘archive’ and one for ‘current’) plus an expanding file of the real current’ documents. I now have one really organised archive box file and one still slightly over-full actually current expanding file and just over one very full black bag of shredded paper.

Ok, Day 1 proper!

Today I have really not done much except cast on for my first pair of socks of 2012 and write this blog post. Well, I’ve jotted down a couple of ideas for how to get started, some are easy (too easy?) and some is just a bit too much to do in the two more days I have before returning to work. I had the crazy idea of doing an inventory of all my belongings but I can’t see that really happening. Just too much work for not so much point.

The only other thing I have done was review previous years goals. The picture to the left is a genuine photograph taken of the message board on the wall in my kitchen. As you can see, I have wanted to improve myself for a little while now…

I have actually done not too bad on some of these but not when I thought I would. Lets review them in order.

1. Learn to cook healthily.

This I never quite mastered. I have a couple of recipes but none of them are really healthy and I come back to the “fundamentally lazy” point on other pages. Some more planning is required in this area if I am ever going to get there.

2. Exercise More

This is one of those goals that I have achieved. Then lost. Then achieved. You get the idea. back in 2010 I lost quite a bit of weight. Give or take 7 pounds I have maintained that in 2011 but I’m still not as fit as I would like, or quite the shape I know I could be (or as tight?)

3. NO TAKE-AWAYS!

Well, this was just never going to be achievable. Everything in moderation. I am sure that if I can sort out planning my meals and cooking taste-filled health-giving food, then I’ll want less take-aways anyway. That has always been the plan anyway…

4. Do more homework for course

This was originally written thinking about my level 4 (became level 6 – long story, not for here) British Sign Language portfolio course back in 2009. This got transferred to my graduate diploma course from late 2009. Both of these I have now achieved (although I don’t have the bit of paper for the portfolio yet). Like everything else, it came in waves but I got the job done.

5. Have a more active social life

This comes in waves too. I’d love to say I have succeeded here but that would be a lie. I have spent most of these holidays on my own in my flat and much of that was through choice and that seems crazy now but I needed it. The big problem? I get jealous of people with a specific kind of social life, those who have friends they can just drop in on, or those that go to the pub together… I don’t know what I want but I know when my jealousy button goes off and that is nobodies fault but my own I guess…

6. Read more

I’m seeing a theme, this comes in waves! I get on a reading kick but then…

7. Knit more

…I get on a knitting kick and I am no good at doing the two at the same time so to address number 6 I use audiobooks a lot but I’d much rather have a book in my hands more than I currently do, I really enjoy it, so why don’t I do it more?? Who knows. The actual number 7 goal disappeared for all of 2009 and 2010 but from late summer 2011 I picked up the needles again and haven’t looked back.

Insanity- Doing the same thing over and over again and expecting different results.

Clearly having this in my kitchen for 3 years hasn’t worked the way I wanted or I wouldn’t currently be writing this to you. It is obviously time for a new approach! I hope you will stay with me through this. I’ll be back with more tomorrow.

KT :-)

Day 1 in t-minus 3 hours (ish)

I am testing this blog space out to see how it is going to work.

Day 1 is tomorrow. The start of the plan. Well… not quite but I’ll go into that more tomorrow. I’m not sure how often I’ll be updating yet, I’m hoping to come up with a plan tomorrow. Lots planned for tomorrow. Day 1. Can’t wait!

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