Day 81

Day 81

“You wouldn’t like me when I’m angry”

Someone did something today that showed me they underestimate me. To say it peeved me is putting it mildly. I was furious. Don’t underestimate me and don’t, ever talk down to me, treat me like a child or call me a liar. I am still mad but it has lit a fire in me that I haven’t felt in a long time.

I went to the gym after work and used the time spent sweating to think about how best to channel the fire. I’m still not sure what my next moves should be but I know that from now on I stop any sycophantic behaviour. Now I do things my way. And who knows, we might just see some results.

Today has also shown me that I definitely want to be my own boss some day. I’m not exactly sure how that will happen or what I’ll be doing but I know I will and I know I won’t be old when it happens.

This evening I made a healthy quick dinner and learned a bit more about my sewing machine, silly things like how to thread it properly and how to oil it and look after it. It is an investment and I want to do my best to make sure it lasts.

I have also started on the gusset of the sock. I’d like the first sock finished this weekend and be started on the second one. The pattern is easy now so as long as I put the work in it will be done.

I can see some good changes in my future. It’s not going to be comfortable. I am going to have to re-learn assertiveness. For such a bolshy child I’ve become a bit more timid an adult in far too many situations.

Anyone got any tips on how to change that? I’m going to need as many as I can get.

KT

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