Day 29

Day 29

Sunday Summary Song of last week
Thanks to Nerd Wars I have to say that the summary song of last week has to be Vampire by Antsy Pants. Please go look it up then come back here. That song reminds me of the man-shape and it never ever ever fails to put a smile on my face. It’s silly cute.

Well, I actually feel like I’ve had a weekend! I think it was because I broke routine on Friday so it’s almost like I got an extra day. This week was weird, work wise. Something happened this week that made me question my past choices. I have been training for a career for a long time now, I’ve invested a lot. But because of my current job (which was always meant to get me closer to the chosen career) I couldn’t take part in the assessment day for people to register to become what I would like to be. And because of where I work I was there, watching them all, feeling like it should have been me too.

I apologise if I am being a bit cryptic but for obvious reasons I don’t want to be too specific. Although if anyone really wanted to, and knew me, they could work it out. I have been assured that if my contract is not renewed there will be another assessment day immediately after and I will get the chance to try too. That is comforting I suppose.

The whole situation had me replaying each choice that brought me to where I am today career wise. Every choice I have made has either been the one that felt right, and therefore was right, at the time or I really had no choice at all. I don’t think I could have played it differently and I’m still not sure if that is a source of comfort or pure frustration. I hate that my path seems like it has been so predetermined. That is just not how my belief system has been programmed. I am clinging on to the belief that I chose my destiny, that I make it. Knowing what I know now, I wouldn’t have chosen to make this path for myself. I can still control this train, right?!

I have not started on bedroom week yet so before photos will be tomorrow. I did get the kitchen done except for the floor so I am feeling quite good about that. I did a big food shop today. Mostly I bought meals that will be quick and easy with a few actual cooking meals thrown in. It’s not all sparkly healthy but not eating take-away food it a step on the right direction.

Progress on the sock! I spent a long time on the sock today with regular finger flexing and walking away from it breaks. I got the heel flap done. Then the heel turn. Then picked up the gusset stitches. Then decreased my way down the gusset. And now? I am a few rounds into the foot and well on target for a January finish (if I get two good knitting evenings Monday and Tuesday.). I love self-imposed deadlines! They motivate me way more than ones that come from most anywhere else!

I have one more chapter of the Sookie Stackhouse novel I started a couple of weeks ago. I’m going to go and finish that so I can start the next one on the train tomorrow. I’m breaking my fiction isn’t bedtime reading rule but I don’t care. I want to know what happens.

In case you can’t tell, I’m smiling. I’m happy tonight. And I’m not really sure what triggered it, but who am I to question?

KT :-)

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